Looking for Opportunities

A long time ago, I contracted a terrible disease that not only affected my physical health but also broke me mentally.  My emotions fell into a terrible pit – I would say an unbearable abyss in the moral and heartbreaking pains in my physical state.

Everything was so strong that I prayed for that nightmare to end, and that I would go back to being the one I was before, healthy, strong and happy.

That did not happen. My body did not respond and froze with the terrible feeling of never being happy again, tormented by pain and fear. That body did not belong to me, but I was inside it, trapped without being able to change that situation. I prayed to God, the universe, nature or whatever you believe in, to heal me and ease my pain. But the solution did not occur, until I thought that the time had come to resolve everything intimately and personally with myself that I felt was happening. 

So only in my room I concentrated, my mind put aside the pain and depression and I began to wonder, “why me?” How did this happen to me? Almost absurd, but the most important question was WHAT was happening? 

And then I realized everything that I should change and strengthen my will to overcome my own limitations when encountering difficulties in life and on my way, what my mission was in this world – after having studied so much, having come to have information on the spiritual tools to be able to overcome situations like the one that was happening.

And the enlightenment of my path came to RETURN TO THE FUNDAMENTAL WISDOM. When it was impossible to escape from the terrible thing that I was enduring, I took charge of the inevitable, and asked for help from my loved ones, my children, my unbreakable wife – my companion and pillar of my strength –  my friends, my coworkers, from all.  And each one of them surprised me with a different but effective support. I realized who I was, the roles which I acted before each one of them, and that calmed my soul, knowing where I was located in my life. And then IF I AM NOT WHO? How could I get out of such a painful situation accompanied by so much love, respect, unconditional, affection, recognition? So the decision was made, I began to be the protagonist of my own life without questioning my present state.

Always waiting for someone to come "to the rescue" to save us from what is inexorably going to happen,  is NOT ENOUGH! The only one who will save me in my life from situations of pain and hopelessness is ME!  I am already clear on the difference between surviving and keeping my life healthy and prosperous. From there I fought with all my strength in my physical training never to stop doing my exercises, and each class was a step gained in my recovery. I did not say "GOOD, I LEAVE IT FOR TOMORROW" or "I'M  TIRED, BETTER ANOTHER DAY” Neither was I angry becuase others told me that I had to keep training.  I am the owner of my life and I am going to get ahead with my own effort. I also strengthened my mind and my spirit with very deep meditation within myself, having a lot of faith, first in myself and then in something higher.

So I was able to overcome my illness after hard work and perseverance after a long and painful year and find a work activity that allowed me to grow economically, and freed myself from many ghosts that haunted my previous life for not finding a way out of my daily financial problems.  

What is my message? 

From the most terrible thing in my life, being sick and without money, I did not give up the power to decide to look for the opportunities that were hidden to change my present. Do not ever stop looking for your own opportunities, whatever they may be; they are surely within you, it is only to propose it and even the worst situation can end! DO NOT FORGET!

Dr. Ruben Hazan Zubi 
Magistrate. Argentina.